Passover 2019

Hi my sweetheart. so missing...tears streaming.

Attempting a brisket tomorrow, think Josh will be here, Danny not, will be in town from Houston soon.  Sam and William and Celeste and Miguel and dear Curt.

CArole, Curt and I married 29 years in July ...

The last 17 without you, how can that be??

Uno March 2019

Hi my dearest, have given up on blog title, would call this one US healthcare from hell.

My gut meds in tablet form retails at $1,200. Will be $406 in Medicare gap, is $100 from India via Canada. Mesalamine enemas retail at about $600, so those retail amounts were charged against Medicare deductive of $4,000... eating most of it.

In GAP enemas will be $150 per month tablets $406 ... in GAP all generics are "discounted" 37%.

Some fucking discount.

Bullfartyfuckeroo!

February 28, 2019. Thursday, no leap for the Norse god of Thunder

Hi Carole,

It's been a while...no excuses except that I still haven't transferred access of this blog to more recent computer, the newer MAC with sign in to Pinecrest Floods.  Hope this 10-year-old desktop keeps going!

Your kids are fine, Josh doing media management for videos, Danny in Houston working on a long term video shoot.

Danny made another short of his own, got the concept while in Cannes a few ago.  Is his poem, others did the voice over and graphics. IS creepy excellent; about a pedophile— makes your shoulders shiver and your gut quiver.   The Incredible Short Life of Peter Panties captures that cruddy nastiness superbly.

Ouch .... along with New York Times header: Former Cardinal Expelled as Pope Confronts Abuse  / Rare Step by Vatican...

I truly don't know how rare all this sordid behavior is — this thunder and riot: its clatter and chaos.

Our current president a confirmed mobster, crook and racist. Families separated, we having lived with ;;;; .....

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Tuesday was colonoscopy day for me—actually sigmoid— same procedure every two years, and time after time I say never again...I seem to be hanging in there ... am back to getting meds from India, even on Medicare am priced out of gut pills in USA... crazy. Mesalamine tablets, $100 a month from India, $1,200 in USA, I'll go through Medicare deductible lickety split ... may have already... also, same drug in different delivery system, up-the-butt as enemas, $167 from India, $600 in USA.  CT scan showed a hernia from surgery years ago,  my small intestine popped out----- gross ...I  pushed it back in.  No worries about large one doing the alien thing, it isn't there...

🐶oh, WOW this older computer has emojis, symbols to add pizazz—💝💘💚💛💖💗💓💞💕❣️💔



Latest Trump rampage

After Michael Cohen's open Senate hearing yesterday ...
 NYT —Update: this afternoon.

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Trump Ordered Officials to Give Jared Kushner a Security Clearance

• President Trump overruled concerns from intelligence officials and the top White House lawyer about giving his son-in-law access to sensitive information, four people briefed on the matter said.
• The disclosure contradicts statements Mr. Trump made in January to The Times in an Oval Office interview.

Breaking13m ago

2019, your birthday, January 3

HI CArole, it is January 3, your birthday.

Had 7-yr-old grandson William for the night, Xmas vacation --- morning of your birthday now, making French toast for breakfast.

Doggie, Britney, won't move her head as I write, her presence impeding, blocking my feet from the computer station.

Curt is hitting the shower for work, I'll be making his lunch, William glued to Minecraft in the next room.

And it is January 3, your birthday...And now it is January 3, your birthday...you 69. me 70, that calendar time of year ...

Seemingly another day, except you are not here.

And later yet,

After he bored of Minecraft, William and I had wonderful payday, he beat me at every game of Connect 4 ...

Changing the Guard, day before Thanksgiving, 2018

HI my dearest.

Swapping fresh Russell Stover chocolates under your picture. Last year was Truffles, bright foil cranberry wrapping,  am replacing with box of All Dark Chocolate, shiny royal blue.

Blue for Hanukkah, days away, December 2, 2018.

How we'd pig out on those buy one, get one specials at grocery ... buy one, get one free...your eyes bright with expectation, maybe mine, too although I couldn't see myself, but through you, the world shone.

Taking showers together

I dreamed we were taking showers together and you made me spill the shampoo. We laughed. Maybe as teenagers at the beach ... sweet.

Terrific Copy re Miami Book Fair, 2018

The MIami Book Fair begins next week and this session is titled Will American Democracy Survive Trump? 12:30 p.m./ Room 2106

The Founders never anticipated a realpolitik in which the most powerful man in America is a reality TV star with autocratic impulses, kleptocratic policies and an itchy Twitter finger. What role should citizens of good faith play when confronted by a leader who neither understands, nor abides by, the rule of law? This will be a spirited and provocative about the future of our democracy , featuring Sarah Kendsior, a regular on MSNBC's AM Joy and author of the the View from Flyover  Country; David Cay Johnson, a Pulitzer Prize-winning journalist and author of The Making of Donald Trump; and Steve Almond, New York Times best-selling author of Bad Stories: What the Hell Just Happened to Our Country.

Carole, after I keyed this copy form booklet. and still with bronchitis , I crashed and dreamed Mom was saying or visa versa ...The car engine needs a lime over ....

WE were together...a long, glorious trial into backtime ....

Wipe Out for Halloween Witch

Carole, did you ever have bronchitis?  Am thinking you had.

Can you believe we still don't have nationalized health and my very own daughter — an ER nurse — loves Trump so much she doesn't care???? Needless to say, our relationship approaches the superficial. 

Am still connecting to you on my older computer because I don't know how to hook this to the floods blog that I update on newer one. Daylight savings ended or began, this morning. And when the time cycle changes again, it will be a another hurricane season and I am so petrified!

Danny and Josh are doing well, Danny got his contract renewed for filming and leaves Houston in a few days. Josh is in the media business, too.

Hi Brethren. 

No writing class for me Tuesday, and possibly a nixed book club Friday. Rogue Witch Nana managed to catch bronchitis Halloween night.

You wouldn’t believe all the sweet, gorgeous, germy kids, hordes In Palmetto Bay, swashing up end down streets, BBQ’s every few blocks. 

Germs winged in a flash and then too sick to text, or open the computer, I plotzed into bed and didn’t move. Except potty trips with all that coughing and coughing. Exhausting. And amazing how quickly it spread, one hour trick or treating, the next overcome with something I couldn’t explain. 

Saturday, when finally texting my dear friend Sharon in New Mexico, Miss Sharon scared the waddens right out of me, saying the coughing and unusual CRACKLING sound indicated bronchitis possibly turning into pneumonia …."Get to a doctor, NO EXCUSES!!!"

Sharon was right on target. Sharon saved Witch Nana from miles away.

Baptist Urgent Care was / is the best: x-rays, strep and flu tests, doctors, nurses, technicians and meds all in one place.

Having insurance imperative, we need MEDICARE + Medicad, good PUBLIC health for everyone. Remember when voting this Tuesday. VOTE BLUE! 

Democratic. Medicare — public health — for everyone! 

 

Grandson William with Witch Nana 

October 19. 2018

My dearest,

Shortly after my surgery, and before you died, I ran into you at Ross. I recall my surprise at seeing you there.  All these years and months and cataclysms, and stars as if yesterday.  I believe this memory is true. Its vividness evidence? Now I wonder if you'll come again, corporeal in the flesh ... as then unto now.

So too the black leather tooled wallet you gifted me last year at Hanukkah. I'd been looking and looking, combing through store shelves....and you'd placed it, behind the platters...so I'd find it — you'd read my mind. 

October 2018. Three days away from 17 years: epicness

HI my love.

Today is October 16, the 19th this Friday. All we should have shared, been doing, still are in a sense, am back to writing, not reading in class this week.

RUFOUS, reddish brown in color, apparently relates to hummingbird.  maybe birds in general, word streamed across my computer screen.