Friday, March 12, 2021

March 11 to 12, 2021

 Hi Carole, 

Dreamed about you last night, we were together at a place with family, the kids and you and I. How stunning you looked, perhaps 35 to 40 years old. You wore a white tunic, with a hint of flapper era styling. 

Passover is coming up. We totally missed last year. Nada. 

Haven't seen the kids since November, wait, actually saw Danny in January for Will's big 10 birthday. Not Josh then, haven't physically seen him in a year!  Covid has kept us distanced.  

Danny is returning to Miami from Houston. Will be grand having him local again. Josh is soooo busy with his pies, hope he can make for the day Celeste picked  ... too early for Passover, she didn't plan very well, but hey, a get together, maybe even indoors! 

I'm back with you and writing, did very little during the height of Covid, too mentally exhausted.  

Love you dearly.

Sunday, January 3, 2021

January 3, 2021..... 71 Birthday

Miracle Sky
Hello my Carole,

You'd be 71-years-old, I am 72.

There are no words when only half remains.

Saturday, December 26, 2020

HApPy Birthday Joshua, the BIG 40!

 Hello Carole,

It's a beautiful afternoon for a birthday. Danny, Kris and Josh celebrating Josh's at Monty's in Coconut Grove. 

Josh's Fookem's Fabulous Key Lime Pies going strong. His birthday a grand break for him. Making and selling pies fun, too!

December 26, 2020

Other news: Curt and I went to Larkin Hospital earlier today with hopes of getting a covid vaccine.  Was a no-go, must make appointment on Monday by phone, imagine the hold time, then wait to schedule and get. They are seeing 9 people every 20 minutes. Do the math. Vaccines scarce, not yet at Baptist, the largest chain around, or drug stores.

Tuesday, December 22, 2020

Untitled. December 2020

 Hi Carole,

A cut and paste of photo from messages worked. December 2020. Can't change size or add caption.

Flowers from Curt's office, his father died age 92.

"Purgatorial isolation” term from NYT editorial.  So expressive. 

CVS won’t have vaccine for old farts like me until March!

Friday, December 18, 2020

Josh purchased new huge mixer

 Hi Carole,

Live!  12:42 PM 

Am on phone with Josh. He is driving back from Dania auction where he purchased an industrial blender for his key limes pies!!!

Monday, October 19, 2020

October 19, 2002 to October 19, 2020

 Hello my dearest Carole, 

It is that time of year again. Eighteen years of missing and longing.

On the upside, Josh and Danny are chugging along, More than chuggging!

Our Danny, Daniel Abril, made it into the Miami Short Film Festival. His short The Incredibly Short Life of Peter Panties is a finalist!

Images of Danny, October 2020. Selfies.

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It is taking place on the Beach next month, and he so wants us there, And I want to be there but am so frightened by Covid that we're passing. And that hurts.  

Being old in the time of Covid is mind shifting. Our adult kids are not affected as we are, and as they cautiously go  about their lives, we are near mute. I am anyway.

For us, it's a different universe. A sad and depressing one.

Sam had, and recovered, says he's 95 % back.

Nurse Celeste had, says she is fine.

Josh and Danny perhaps asymptomatic.

So far Curt and I are seemingly clear. But I am listless 24\7. The term coined "Covid fatigue." A fatigue like a pervasive exhaustion that sucks the energy right out of you.

Sunday, October 11, 2020

October 11, 2020


There's a meaniness about grief

the way it takes

all that we have ...

Sunday, September 27, 2020

Yom Kippur, 2020

Oh Carole, tonight is Yom Kippur and I forgot, that's how crazy things are here with Covid. And politics. 

We remember all who came before and I am missing you terribly. 

Sam and Will are stopping by for pizza tonight, very last minute. 

I just texted Danny. From South Beach he wrote back "we were lucky to have her [you] for the time that we did." Oh, Carole tears welling down my cheeks. 

Celeste could make it Friday, so we will have the kids here then, for pizza outside... Josh, Danny, Sam, William, Celeste and am so hoping Miguel, too. Plus me, Hope, and Curt. We've shrunk! 

A reworking of the High Holidays this Friday with pizza on the patio outside: terrace dining. HA!

And you my dear sister, with me - all of us -  forever.

Monday, August 3, 2020



We were so close in dreamsleep, I could smell the sweat eminating from your tanned sunburned shoulders. You in front, head turned as if looking at me behind you, like horses slowed after galloping neck to neck. Pumping air. Panting. Purring. Together.

Friday, July 24, 2020

Miami TV Producer Pivots to Producing Pies During the Pandemic

Oh Carole! You'd be tickled pink!

Way to go, Joshua.

Hawking from home, a beginning.
Cooking and baking ....

At Coconut Grove Fire Department...

There is video on youtube: so cool.....