Saturday, October 19, 2013

Life and then not

8:52 AM — October 19, Saturday, eleven years ago, you alive, passing up a garage sale, you and Craig together....

It would be Sunday morning about this time when I learned .... I'd left the phone off the hook because Mother would call all hours of the night ... I was the last find out you died before midnight, October 19.

Distance and its evidence — your words. Days, actions, disbelief — the agony a tide receding not.

1: 53 PM — October 19.  In real time on this day eleven years ago, you and Craig are together, he hasn't yet left for work, you both deliriously happy.

It is that image I hold in a life now without you, your happiness then

along with those in all the years before, 52 of them together you and I.

Years and months and days: time categorized to make sense of.


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